Om Mani Padme Hum ༀམཎིཔདྨེཧཱ

There was a point a couple years ago when I had lost my job and I almost never paid for weed just because my friends would enjoy talking with me.  My high conversations are the best, hands down.

The being broke aspect didn’t work out at times though.  My man Gunner used to always call my phone around 11PM and without saying anything I knew what it was for.  We’d either have weed and no dutch, dutch and no weed, or both with no place to smoke it.

To this day I haven’t figured out why I’ve always attracted super aggressive women although my demeanor is beyond chill.

Not that I’m complaining though.  I never really liked seeing a woman that allows herself to be easily manipulated.  Although I must admit, when the craziest women in the hood used to hit me with the “I think I’m feeling you”, I knew it was only a matter of time before she pulled that Raging Demon on someone in front of me.

I’ve learned there are those who indulge in philosophy for guidance of life and others for understanding of self and the people around them.  At the same time wisdom really can’t be forced and I’ve also learned some people follow mantras out of appeal instead of a desire to live by them.  I’d have stacks on deck if I had a dollar for every dude I came across quick to quote “48 Laws of Power” without realizing certain aspects of yourself are what make you an individual and letting someone else think for you in contradictory.  Things that are second nature to some are foreign to others.

I know for a fact I don’t have all the answers but I’ve understood what that meant for a while which is probably why I’m at conflict with myself so much.  It’s crazy to look back when I was 17 since people would ask my college plans but when you think about it, it’s pretty fucked up to ask someone like me “So what do you want to do for the rest of your life when you haven’t even lived a quarter of it?”.

I’m just trying to create.

So how can I go about making a petition for Netflix to implement a random movie/TV show feature so I can stop spending time looking for things to watch than actually doing so.

Got me out here watching bad Ice-T movies because the title selection can be sus at times.

One of the things that sucks about being a black person that really loves sci-fi and elements of post-apocalypticism, dystopian/utopian futures and space themed cinema is that 90% of the time you’re given the impression that black people are either associated with the villains, exist only in low numbers or just don’t exist at all.

Even if you like the movie you’re just sitting there wondering what they’re implying.  I mean, if anything you’d think there would still be mad spanish speaking people running around.

Is it bad that I have a strong dislike for people who go into a record store, pull a record out the stack to take a picture of it but don’t actually buy the record?

I find it interesting that there are men who say they hope they don’t have a daughter when the time comes for them to have children because they don’t want to deal with societal pressures of what it takes to raise one or because of their past experiences with women.

It’s counter productive in a lot of ways to have that mentality because you shouldn’t be that judgmental of women if you feel as a father you lack the ability to contribute a great woman to this world.